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COMMON THREADS What follows is a list of threads that held people here in their darkest moments. Please examine them closely and hold on tightly to the ones that fit your situation best. E-mail me with threads that have held you back from the edge. If it worked for you it can work for someone else. Hence the name of this page... these are "common threads."

• What has held me back is the fact that my father committed suicide, and I refused to inflict the same pain on my children one more time.
• I didn't want to destroy my mother.
• I was writing a good-bye letter to my Goddaughter, and it hit me that I couldn't do this! How could it be explained to her?
• I had to stay alive long enough to see Eric Clapton in concert. That was going to be my deadline (no pun intended!), but after the concert, I had lifted enough out of the depths I didn't need to kill myself.
• I thought to myself, "What if there's one more way?" I had my "plan" and only needed to fill in the detail of the date and who I wanted to try to have find my body (thinking I could lessen the impact on my mom!?!). Instead, I prayed. It had been a very long time. I said to God, "What is this all about? Is this all there is? What do you want for me for my life, because it can't be this. Show me some light! And he did!
• When I was 15 I was thinking pretty seriously about suicide. My brother's best friend was an EMT and he was talking about this boy that had killed himself how he had messed his pants when he died, how that ALWAYS happens. I knew then I would NEVER commit suicide. Yes, I know, that's selfish. It worked though. Hope this helps.
• I developed a wonderful relationship with a Christian therapist, who helped me to walk through the fear and pain of facing my past.
• My fiancée left me for my best friend. I was going to kill myself and then I thought "wait a minute, they'll just say I was crazy. It won't hurt them a bit, but my Mom and Dad would NEVER get over it." So instead I got a new boyfriend.
• Who would take care of my animals the way I do? No one!
• I thought to myself, "my life has to be worth more than this!"
• Someone would have to find me, and I can't control who that is, or even think of a preferable person.
• What if I didn't do it properly and I ended up badly disabled? If I tried to run off the road in my car I would probably end up just badly burned and busted up, if I jumped off a building and lived I'd almost certainly have a broken back. Talk about depressing, that would be very depressing.
• The best thing for me was touch, good friends, and definitely counseling, that's a must!!!
• The one thing that stops me is that one there is always a chance that tomorrow will be better and it is a sure ticket to hell not heaven.
• I had been wearing a thermal shirt with an open denim shirt over it when I choose to murder myself. A woman in the store came out and saw me slumped over the steering wheel. She called 911. During their attemts to bring me back, they had to cut open my shirt to zap me with the paddles (NINE times!). Afterwards I found the shirt and was freaked out about how it had been cut open and I hung it on the wall almost resembling a crucifix. I wrote on it, REMEMBER! Under that I wrote, I am worth living. Here in this moment is where I'm meant to be. Thank you, Jesus Christ. Amen.

During more than 30 years of depression, suicidal feelings were frequent. But I never made it across. How could I have endured so much pain without ending it all? Two thin threads held me back:  what it would do to my daughters. No matter what, I couldn't do that to them. Now that I take effexor and I'm pretty good at utilizing my negative emotions, if you ever hear I committed suicide, call the cops - there's been foul play! I'm not suggesting you stay and hurt for years. I'm suggesting you grab a thread or two from the list above and hang on tight while you practice utilizing rather than suffering depression, anxiety, loneliness, and/or anger.

"The mind, once stretched by an empowering idea,
can never fully shrink to its original dimensions."
- Oliver Wendell Holmes, paraphrased

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