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I REFUSED to Suffer Pain is necessary. Suffering is optional. I was molested when I was eleven. I couldn't tell anyone. I was convinced if I told, my mother would kill my father, she'd go to prison, and I'd be seperated from my brothers and sister. If I told, I would be completely alone and so would everyone in my family. Each of us would be all alone. Each one of us would suffer. more....

It was five years before I told anyone. I was a good reader though, so I went to the library almost every day that summer. I'd go into the grownup section of books and search through the psychology books with a dictionary at hand, trying to find out what to do with the intense emotional alarm clocks I'd been given. It was 1964 and I found no answers then or for many years after that. Not knowing any better, I left the emotional alarm clocks ringing. It was hard on me and everyone who's life mine touched.

Most of what I've learned about negative emotions I learned from a Tony Robbins book called Awaken the Giant Within, that I found when I was forty years old. There was another book on utilizing negative emotions that I used too, it was a white paper back book with a thin spine and I don't remember the name. I'll include it next time I get to the bookstore. It had bigger words, and a longer bibliography - but Tony's work was the easiest and the best. What I write is what I learned from practicing those two books.

Don't feel sorry for me. No need. After I found "Awaken the Giant Within" and started practicing utilizing my negative emotions, I realized that though my life was cursed with molestation, I could use that curse to help others who were suffering. If I help enough people, then it's worth it. I can live with it. If it hadn't happened, this website would not be here. Thank you God, and thank you reader for helping me help. It's only working together that we find our heaviest burdens and worst luck can eventually benefit our world.

"The mind, once stretched by an empowering idea,
can never fully shrink to its original dimensions."
- Oliver Wendell Holmes, paraphrased

Every single one of the the three hundred plus pages of this site was built to draw you here to see this one page. Look. See for yourself what I consider so important I'd go to such lengths to share it.

Thank you for sharing this page with your friends.

Your thoughts and feelings are important to me.
Talk to me.

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